JR's Birth Story

On Sunday October 3rd, 2010 I was admitted into the hospital at 9pm to start induction at 9:30 by prostin gel. I was examined before hand to see if anything had happened, nothing, then I was given the gel. I felt crampy and burning afterward, but nothing else. I was told I would be checked again at 6am to see if I was dilating. On Monday October 4th, the midwife checked me again and I had not dilated any overnight but my cervix had softened and baby had dropped further, so I got another dose of the gel. I never felt much different so they said they would check me again at 1pm. I was checked and OB said I had dilated 2cm and baby was down another bit. Yay! Progress! So at 6 pm they gave me another dose of the gel. In the morning at 8am, they broke my water, I was 3cm dilated. I spent the whole day in the labour room, hooked up to the drip. Boy, the pain was intense. I refused the epidural and opted for entonox (gas). Did that ever feel good! Haha. I still felt the pain but the gas took the edge off it. I was still laughing between contractions and by 3pm I could hardly take any more, I took the shot of Demerol but I don’t think it did anything. At 5:30 I was checked and no progress, the little guy just did not want to come out. The OB decided to send me for a c section. Lovely. I spent the whole day having contractions now I had to go to the OR. It was scary at first, and I had the option to go to sleep, but Ken wanted to be there really bad, so I took the spinal instead and it numbed me from the mid section down to my toes. Ken was there holding my hand once I got the needle. I was a little nervous, but I couldn’t wait to meet our little man. The tugging and pulling was unbelieveable! But in no time, he was out. At 6:23 pm on Tuesday October 5th, our little Jackson Ryan Walter Reid entered the world. It was a feeling I will never forget. Ken & I couldn’t speak, we both cried as soon as we heard his cry. The midwife took him and suctioned him out and wrapped him up and brought him to me to hold. He was so beautiful, I kissed him and he was whisked off to the nursery to get weighed and such. Daddy went with him. Waiting there was Nanny & Poppy Reid & Grandma Pilgrim. I was in the OR getting stapled back together, boy did that hurt! I was there almost an hour after JR was born. The Dr. Was suctioning out everything and pushing and pulling on my belly. I started to moan and groan because it was too much, they kept telling me it was almost over, but it felt like forever! Then the anesthesiologist wanted to put me to sleep. I refused, I went this far without it, I would handle the rest. I started to get some sensation back when I was getting stapled up and felt the last couple staples go in! Pure torture! But then it was over. They put me on a gurney and wheeled me off to ICU for the night because I had lost so much blood. I was pure white, lips and all. When I got in ICU, the nurses there were great. They cleaned me up and after a couple hours, Ken got to come visit and bring the baby. All I could do was cry. I was so tired and medicated and my memory is a little fuzzy. But it was all worth it. I had to stay in the hospital until Sunday because it was considered major surgery. They were going to let me go on Saturday but baby had a mild touch of jaundice. I was trying to breastfeed and he wasn’t eating well because he didn’t want to stay on the breast. It was very frustrating and the nurses had to supplement him with formula. Finally they brought in a breast pump for me to try and he would drink the milk I pumped out of a syringe. He had a good latch, but he would never stay on, or fall asleep after a few sucks. So when we came home on Sunday I decided that we would go to the pharmacy and get a pump to use at home. Well, the pharmacy had none in stock and didn't know when they would get them. Ok, a little frustrated, but I figured we would try hand expressing and give it to him in a syringe. Well, the hand expressing didn't go to well, I was frustrated, it hurt, and baby was starving. It came to the point we had to supplement formula that afternoon, that’s when I knew we had to make a decision. I wanted to give up breastfeeding, but Ken wanted me to give it 2 more weeks. I was ready to give up then. But then we made a few phonecalls and got a pump from a friend. When we got home my boobs were so engorged I thought they would burst! When I pumped the first lot of milk off, I had to stop early as I though the container would overflow. So, now JR still will not take the breast, but we’re not giving up just yet. I’ve been pumping and giving it to him in a bottle. This way Daddy can feed him too. Maybe one day he will just latch on, we hope. But if not, at least he's still getting breastmilk!


Waiting & Wishing

So here I am, day 4 overdue, day 2 of induction, still feeling no different and no baby yet. The Dr. brought me in Sunday night and started giving me gel to get this process going around 10pm, they gave me more at 6am, I felt crampy and crappy yesterday but that was it. Then last night they decided to do it again, I felt crampy again, then I slept through pretty much the whole night. This whole time, the baby has moved down further, I am dilated 2 cm and the Dr. said she could have broken my waters yesterday, but she wanted to wait until this morning. So at 8am, they broke my water. It wasn't half as bad as people made it out to be! The midwife told me that we will have a baby by 12 tonight one way or the other! Yay! I'm so happy! Ken is so awesome, he spends all day and night with me. Goes home at 12am to sleep and back again bright and early in the morning. We're sitting here passing time playing games on the computer, Thank God for wifi! So, here I sit, not feeling very glorious at all, in a diaper because the fluid is just gushing, lol. Keeps feeling like I'm peeing myself, lol. It will all be worth it in the end!! Can't wait to see my baby boy!!!


D-Day is here...

...but still no sign of baby!! I am so miserable today and have been since my appointment on Wednesday. The midwife did an internal exam and a membrane sweep. Apparently my cervix is soft, but that's it. The baby has dropped, but not all the way, but she said that he might not drop all the way until labour. They were hoping the sweep would get something going. Well I've been having pain like menstrual cramps, and my blood pressure has been shooting up, but it's not consistent or regular. I just feel like a big sack of you-know-what. They told me on Wednesday that they didn't want me to go too far overdue, so they would try and bring me in to induce me. Well, they started saying Thursday night, then maybe tonight, if not Sunday, Monday at the latest. Ugh! I hate the waiting game, but I guess that's all I can do. My back is so bad, I want to go for a walk, see if that helps anything, but I don't know how far I'll get. I don't sleep well at all and I'm ready for a good ol' nap, lol. Baby is really active again though. It feels like he's gonna give one swift kick and push himself out, lol. I'm gonna miss the bruised ribs and sore stomach though. But I'm just so anxious to hold him! Hope he decides to come soon!


Just 4 more days...

...Until my due date!! Will baby come on time or will we have to wait a lil' longer? I'm getting so anxious now, it's like a real guessing game. Every twinge has me looking at the clock, lol. I've packed and repacked his bag and my bag, again and again. This week I did laundry, cooked, baked, cleaned the livingroom, vacuumed, scrubbed the bathroom (even the cupboard under the sink that hasn't been touched in years!) I keep looking for things to clean. They tell me it's nesting, but I think it's just the anticipation of our little one. The Dr. said she will check for dilation and effacement on Wednesday to see what's happening with my body. Other than that, I still feel great, except for the pressure on my hoo-ha! Feels like I've been kicked with a pair of steel toe boots. Oh well, guess I'll just have to wait it out. I'm cooking hot supper again today and gonna occupy myself by making some cards. Come on JR!!! We're waiting to meet you!!!


almost 39 weeks...

So here we are, sitting at almost 39 weeks! Only 8 days left until baby is due to arrive! I had another ante-natal appointment yesterday as well as an ultrasound. Apparently baby is into position, he just has to decide when he wants to come out (UMM, LIKE TODAY WOULD BE GOOD??). The tech. said he's measuring at about 8lb 3ozs now (MY POOR VAJAYJAY!). We are so anxious to meet him, this week I can notice changes in my body, my belly is lower, the pressure is stronger, I have to pee more, and I AM HUNGRIER THAN EVER! Monday night we thought that was going to be the night, I had to pee like 10 times in an hour! Everytime I would like down to watch TV, I would have to get up and go bathroom again. Ugh, I can't sleep long either because I have to pee so much. I wasn't sure after a while if it was pee, or my water had broke. I had a lot of pain in my belly as well. But soon he will be here and I will miss his little kicks and pokes and squirms from inside. The Dr. & midwife suggested eating fresh pineapple and having plenty of "what got me into this situation in the first place" lol. It was so funny, all I did was laugh at my appointment. My bp was 148/77. They said it was good, but I can feel it spiking a lot lately, last night it happened several times, so I guess I'll have to keep an eye on it. I also waddle like a duck more than ever now. I can't walk straight if I tried! There's so much pain and pressure on my pelvis, sometimes it feels like the baby is half out, lol. I told Ken, "I think I can reach down and grab an arm or a leg sometimes", lol. I must say though, through it all I can't complain, I've had a pretty good pregnancy and I've been so fortunate because a lot of women never get this experience. It's amazing how something so small can fill your heart so much. I never knew I could love someone I haven't met yet. JR, you are my life, my world, my hopes, my dreams. I just hope and pray I can be the best Mom to you than ever thought possible. This doesn't always mean giving you what you want, remember, sometimes, Mom knows best. Just know that no matter what, you are loved more than words or material things could ever express. xo


38 weeks

So here we are, 38 wonderful weeks. When's this baby gonna make an appearance? He's settling into my pelvis quite nicely for him I guess, not so nice for me, the pressure is almost unbearable at times. Hopefully he'll make an appearance in the next 2 weeks and no later. My BP has been staying pretty much under control. My appointment was like 5 minutes this week, BP was 130/70, heartbeat was strong, everything else was fine, Dr. just told me to relax and come back next week. It was a nice break from the hour long appointments I have been having. I got a cold a few weeks ago and I guess the baby felt it too and I didn't feel him move as much, so I had to be monitored, but he's doing well, Dr. said last week the baby had dropped and was getting ready to engage into position for birth so he wont be moving quite as much. I'm so anxious so see him and hold him. But then again, so nervous about becoming a parent. It seems my body is preparing for labour, I'm having Braxton Hicks contractions off and on and my back is aching a lot. This week has been the first time I couldn't go downstairs and do laundry, so I can't complain. I'm still cooking and cleaning and doing everything else, lol. But I can tell I'm slowing down, and I find I want to nap more. Sometimes it's only 15 minutes but makes me feel so refreshed. Only thing is, if I lay down too long my hips and thighs ache something fierce! I'm looking forward to sleeping on my belly again! lol. Oh the little things you take for granted! But it will be all worth it to hold our precious bundle of joy! xo -C



Pregnancy Questionnaire

Mother Name: Candace Astra
Age: 27
Birthday: July 17, 1983
Birth Place: St. Anthony, NL
Height: 5'9"
Father Name: Kenneth Nathaniel
Age: 26
Birthday: May 9, 1984
Birth Place: St. Anthony, NL
Height: 6'1"

Is this your first pregnancy?: Yes
How did you find out you were pregnant?: I was craving fish for like a week and then all I wanted was veggies and greasy stuff turned me off. Then one Saturday Ken & I were at work and we were planning on partying on the weekend, we had already joked how I must be preggo because of the cravings. I then started thinking more, what if I was? I didn't want to party and risk something happening. So Ken went to the pharmacy, got the test, I did it at work and saw the very visible pink line. We laughed and cried. I think we were both excited and nervous.
What kind of pregnancy test did you take?: Clear Blue
How many?: Just that one!
What were your first symptoms? food cravings/aversions, tiredness, tender breasts
Who did you tell first? My Momma. Then Ken told his Mom, who told his Dad. We phoned them from work.
Who was with you when you found out? Just Ken!
Was baby planned?: No, but he is more than welcomed! :) I had wanted a baby for a while but we were never "ready" per se.
When was baby conceived?: around the first/second week of January
How far were you when you found out?: 5 weeks

Due date: October 1, 2010
Do you want to know the sex?: I didn't but Ken did but now I'm glad we found out!
Do you know the sex?: It's a boy!
Any names?: after much deiberation, Ken wanted Casey for the longest time, we decided on JR standing for Jackson Ryan.
Any ultrasounds?: We've had about 5 or 6 so far and another one at 39 weeks to make sure baby didn't flip over. But I seriously doubt there's room for that! The first one was at around 12 weeks (not quite sure, he was only the size of a gummy bear!), then another one sometime after that, a 3rd one at 20 weeks, 4th one at 28 weeks 5 days, he was measuring 30 weeks 5 days. 5th one was at 35 weeks, baby was getting ready to decend into the pelvis and no longer breach. Thank God!
Have you heard the heartbeat?: At almost every appointment since about 12 weeks. We also listened at home with a friends monitor.
Who do you think baby will look like? Not sure, hope he's a mix of us both :)
Will baby have any siblings?: depends on how much labour raumatizes me, but I would like to have one more child.
Have you and dad felt baby move? Yup. He's an active little one. I can watch my belly dance.
When did you start to show?: lol, I can still pass for not being preggo, but when I wear maternity clothes you can tell. I started showing about 25 weeks or so?
How long could you wear your regular clothes? I still can, lol.
Are you excited?: Absolutely!!

Did you have morning sickness?: No, thank God. I did have a few bouts of not feeling well, but that was always later in the day and attributed to hunger or fatigue
Do you have any cravings?: Fruit, Veggies, Fish. But since I've been getting towards the end now, junk food. I try not to, but it's horrible!
Do you have any mood swings?: Um, yea :(
Are you a high risk pregnancy?: Yes, my blood pressure was out of whack, but since the Dr. took me off work mid April, it's being kept under control for the most part
Formula or breastfeeding? I am most certaintly going to try breastfeeding!
Have you bought anything for baby yet?: We're pretty much ready. Got a crib, swing, bathtub, bassinet, and exersaucer from my cousin, Auntie bought him a mattress, had a shower and got lots of clothes and money. Car seat was one of the first things we bought. We've done really good from friends and family giving us things.
Who will help with baby after their born? Well I'm taking Maternity leave, Ken is taking the rest of his holidays and he has a pretty good work schedule and we live with my Mother so hopefully I'll have a good support system.
What is your favorite thing about being pregnant? Feeling him move and knowing no two human beings can be closer than a mom with her baby. I love to feel his movements, and learn things that calm him, or startle him, or get him going. I like feeling my belly and figuring out what position he is in. When I'm bummed about something he's good at reminding me he's there...and his little movements make me smile.
What is the worst thing about being pregnant? All the soreness that goes along with it. Backaches and sore pelvic floor!
Whats one thing do you miss doing since being pregnant? hmm, nothing really, I'm too excited about baby to think about things I miss.
Any days you wish you weren't pregnant?: I love being prego. :)
Are you ready for baby? As ready as we're gonna be I guess. We'll just have to wing it from here!
How many kids do you want?: 2 sounds good.
Do you talk to your baby?: Yes, and he responds by rolling or squirming or a swift kick in the ribs!
Do you still feel attractive?: Of course, most of the time anyway, except when I get bloating or heartburn, ugh.
Have you had your baby shower yet?: Yes, Flora had one when she was home, Aug 4th, for my family. Ken's family is further away.
Do you like kids? Love them!
How far along are you now?: 36 weeks and 2 days.


Nursery almost completed?

Yes, I think it is. Depending on when baby decides to show, it could be considered complete, lol. There's a few little things I need to get. Baby's bag is half packed, mine isn't even started. I figured maybe I'll start today. I've been feeling a lot more pressure on my pelvis and less movement from baby. More squirming than kicking now. I guess space is very limited. Another appointment on Wednesday, we'll see what the Dr. has to say. Ken figures by 37-38 weeks I will be in labour, I figure I'm gonna go over. I'm so anxious to meet my little man. I really should be enjoying the last few momoments of quiet and me time, but I can't wait to just smother him in kisses. I'm nervous about labour though. I'm not sure I'll know what to do, I'm such a wuss when it comes to pain, lol.
Kenn has been so good though, he's really supportive and even gave me a pedi and painted my toenails a couple times :) I'm so lucky! xo


35 amazing weeks

So here I am, 35 weeks along and still could pass for not being preggo. lol. But baby sure is growing! We had an ultrasound on Wednesday and the tech said baby was measuring 39 weeks 5 days. Approx 6 1/2 lbs. He is sure going to be a big boy! My ribs are so tender from his kicks, he is no longer breached and the tech said he's getting into position for birth. ahhh!! scary and exciting the same time! I am finding so much more pain now. Back, sides, hips, thighs, you name it, I got it. I'm sure I see the clock every hour through the night. I don't sleep well at all, even worse than before. My energy level is almost on zero I have to force myself to move, lol. Seems baby loves music though, every time we turn it on, he kicks up a storm. I'm guessing (and hoping) he comes earlier than expected, but not too early that I have to go to St. Johns. As much as I love feeling him move inside me, I'm ready to meet my little man and have a different excuse for not sleeping, lol.


33 weeks, and counting....

Oh the heat! I hate the heat. Next time I get preggo, I'm planning it for the winter, lol. It's so uncomfortable in this heat. Maybe it isn't that hot, but I feel like I'm gonna melt. I just can't handle 25 degrees, lol. I had another appointment Wednesday past. Because my stomach was so tender, they hooked me up to the monitor. Dr. said she thinks it's because of the severe heartburn I've been having. She prescribed some ranitidine. It works wonders! But while I was on the monitor, we were watching my belly move as the baby turned over and kicked, it was so cool. But I started to get sick, and lost all color in my face and lips and got cold and clammy, thought I was going to pass out. The midwife looked scared and when she measured my blood pressure, it was 70/30. She got me to sit uo a little and then I started to come around and my blood pressure went back up. It's been about a few times that's happened since I've been preggo. They don't know what happened. But all seems to be well! another ultrasound in 10 days. Can't wait to see our little man again! People are still bringing gifts for baby since they never made it to the shower. I got more clothes and a quilt. Can't wait to put the nursery together, hopefully this weekend. We're gonna paint I think a green color to match the bedding. Sleep is getting less and less. Everything hurts. Come on baby!


Hi Baby...

...You have been so active lately! Keeps Mommy reassured that everything is ok! Daddy likes to listen to you in the mornings before he goes to work, you are always awake at 6:00am (I hope this doesn't continue after you're here) and when he puts his face to Mommy's belly, you like to kick him. He talks to you and kisses you through Mommy's belly. I can tell you have him wrapped already and you're not even here yet! I guess your living space is getting smaller now because you've decided to take up space in my ribcage. It's so cute when we can grab your little feet and you wriggle away. There was a party in your honor last Wednesday night. Everyone brought gifts and money and there was so much food! You made Mommy tired fast, but we had a great time seeing family and friends. I don't think you like loud noises though, because you seemed to be tensed up a lot and relaxed as it got quieter. I already know you're gonna be like Daddy though. Everytime there's something cooking you kick and squirm as if to say "I want some!", lol. At least you know good food ;) Time is getting shorter now, about 7 weeks left to go, maybe sooner? Who knows! All I know is we can't wait to see you and kiss you and hug you and squeeze you and cuddle you and, well, you get the idea. I just want you to know how loved you are and always will be. I hope that you grow up to be exactly who you want to be, but never forget where you came from. Here's a song that says exactly what I want you to always remember in life...

"My Wish"

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you're faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin' til you find the window
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything
My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you're out there gettin' where you're gettin' to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish
I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you and the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you'd find God's grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything
My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold

Just wanted you to know that before you were even born, I loved you.
xoxo, Love, Mommy


31 weeks down!

So here we are....31 weeks. Never thought this day would come. I was saying that to Ken last night. He said before you knows it, you'll be sitting at his high school graduation saying the same thing, lol. Oh, I hope time doesn't go that fast. Although, I am trying to rush it now, lol. I'm still feeling good for the most part, I can feel the weight on my pelvic bone and it hurts sometimes when I'm walking. I feel like I get overwhelmed even going to the tiny mall here. It's like I can't stay standing for long. So I want to paint the nursery sooooo bad. But we have comany comming for a few weeks and figure it's better to wait til they go back since the room will be occupied. I just feel so disorganized and I hate that, lol. I don't even know what I have for the baby anymore, or what I need. Flora is having a baby shower for me on Wednesday. I hate showers and stuff, especially when I'm the centre of attention, but it's nice of her to do that so I'll have to get over it. Plus, it's not for me, it's for baby.
I've been doing a lot of scrapbooking and cardmaking lately. I figure if I can stock up now, I will be too busy when baby comes, lol. I need to get my christmas cards done as well and out of the way.
So my birthday was a couple weeks ago. Ken bought me a strawberry short cake, mmm, it was yummy! That's all I wanted for my birthday. He told me to get myself something. So I went and bought a show rack for the porch because I hate boots all over the place and 3 packs of baby hangers, lol. Yes, I was quite happy :) (Then last week I did some scrapbook shopping online, hehe).
I think my times spent at the cabin are getting short. We went this week to spend some time and relax, it was very nice, even lit the fire, cooked some buffalo wings and frsh corn. It was yummy. But for some reason, I wake up in pain in the mornings, I can hardly walk my hips are so bad. I just can't wait to get back home to my comfy bed.
I;m starting to feel a little anxious about labour and delivery now. Wondering if it's gonna last forever, lol. Or where I'm gonna be when it happens. Ugh, so many things I worry about when I should just wait and see what happens.
I have to go back to the Dr. again next week. See what they have to say. See how much weight I put on. I gained back the 8lb I lost on my last appointment 3 weeks ago. I don't feel like I gained any weight and I don't look any different, but I guess baby is getting bigger. I hope all is well with him and he's healthy, that's all that matters.
Anyway, that's all for now. Just have to take it one day at a time and stop wishing time away. I will see my little man soon enough! xo -C


29 weeks!

Yes, believe it or not, we have a name. Jackson Ryan Walter Reid, we will go by JR. Walter is after Hubbys Maternal Grandfather. And to think I was sure he would be nameless, lol. I'm officially into my Third Trimester. I'll be 29 weeks as of Friday. Still feeling great, but the heat is killer! I just can't handle it! I sleep with the fan on me all the time now. I hope it doesn't stay too hot all summer. It's only 20 degrees here today but it's too much for me. I had an appointment today, bp was 122/66 so still going good, Thank God! But, I gained 8 lbs in 3 weeks! So much for losing 8lbs, lol. Oh well, at least baby is growing. I'm still eating pretty good though for the most part. I try to avoid some cravings as they're not all good, lol. Kenny went to ON for a week and brought back some baby things. We were looking at paint colors for the room today, I wanna go with a nice limey green color to match the bedding. We have another ultrasound tomorrow, I can't wait to see baby again! My stomach has finally popped somewhat. I actually look preggo now, and feel it too, lol. I get leg cramps when I'm sleeping, my back aches but other than that, I'm feeling pretty good! Except for the tiredness. Gotta love afternoon naps! Anyway, thats all for now!


Naming woes!

So baby finally kicked Daddy for the first time a week ago today. Now his kicks are getting stronger, I can actually see him kicking it's so amazing. Only 14 weeks left until we get to meet our little nameless man! We can't decide on a name at all. I pick a name Daddy doesn't like it, Daddy picks a name, Mommy doesn't like it. We have some of the same names we like but nothing sticks out! I was never more certain until now that our baby will be, unfortunately, nameless. *Le sigh* I hope some name just makes me fall in love with it soon! I'm so impatient. Daddy likes Casey, Me, not so much. But I don't know, maybe it's my crazy hormones. Face it, boys names are so much harder to pick than girls!
So I had another appointment today, all is well. Haven't gained a pound, but getting bigger. Blood pressure is staying pretty good. 140/70. I can feel my belly getting hard now, it's so cool.
We went to St. Johns last week and got some maternity clothes and baby things. I still have some things to get but I've been given quite a few things too. I love looking at baby things, makes me so giddy, lol.
So, we're thinking about painting the nursery green, but not til closer to the end of august, after all our summer visitors go back. Then hopefully we'll get everything in order. I have some great people helping me out with baby things, if it wasn;t for them I don't know what I'd do! You know who you are.
Anyways, name suggestions welcome. Nothing too whacky, lol


Kickin' Up A Storm

So here we are on vacation and the baby's kicking like crazy! I'll be 25 weeks on Friday. I am so tired and can't wait to get home though! We drove to St.Johns on Thursday. Didn't get here until 10:30pm, I was so tired. I don't think I'd wanna drive it all in one day again. I did get some maternity clothes which was the one thing I really needed though. Ken got a new phone, which apparently he needed (men). lol. But we had fun. I'm not a big shopper, so I was in and out as fast as I could. We went to Signal Hill, Fort Amherst, and Cape Spear on Friday, and a bazillion other places around here, it was such beautiful weather, couldn't have asked for a better day. Went downtown yesterday and walked around, watched as they tore down what was left of the Robathan, McKay & Marshall Law Office, it burned to the ground yesterday. We went to church today in Greens Harbour (Ken used to live there and knows lots of people there), had dinner at his Aunts, listened to his Uncle play the Banjo and the baby kicked like crazy again. The baby just loves music and is kicking constantly everytime it's on. We went to the Aquarena tonight swimming, it was so relaxing. I'm really getting tired of the takeout food though. I miss my home cooked meals, lol. We're heading back to the West Coast tomorrow, stopping in Wendy's in Campbelton, she has some baby stuff for me. Then we're thinking about going to Corner Brook for the night. We'll see, maybe we'll just head on home. I enjoyed our little trip, but I still have no desire to move back to the city. Small town life is just fine for me, lol.


22 wonderful weeks!

So I made it past 22 weeks. I'll be 23 weeks on Friday. So I've been having appoimtments every 2 weeks now instead of every week. My blood pressure is staying pretty much under control, as long as I take it easy, get plenty of rest and fit some walks in, lol, some. We're still mulling over names, it's so frustrating, our child will be nameless I'm sure, lol. I've been on sick leave since April 14th and have yet to recieve a penny from it. It takes sooo long! It shouldn't take this long but the company I worked for never ever sent me and ROE and refuse to call me back, typical. But I did everything I need to do, now just waniting for a call from them. I try not to stress over it because it's just gonna give me a headache and land me in the hospital, which we don't want. I'm still wearing my regular clothes, but now unbuttoned, lol. My jeans are tighter but still bearable. I guess being a big girl isn't so bad afterall :) The less I have to spend on maternity clothes, the better. So I have an appointment again next week, I'm sure all will be fine again. xo -C


We're having a.......

Yep, we're having a boy. so exciting, but I would have been just as equally excited either way. We had our 20 week ultrasound on May 12, last wednesday. Baby would not stay still. The tech. had a hard time getting the pictures she needed, she said he was very active. It was so amazing to see him moving around in there and kicking my bladder. Then on Friday, May 14th I felt him kick for the first time. It really is a feeling like no other, and he loves to kick my bladder. I was sitting listening to Country music and he kicked several times when an upbeat song came on. It was awesome. I can feel my stomach getting harder and it's exciting for Ken too 'cause at least he can feel the difference since I still don't look preggo. I lost a total of 7 pounds so far, but the baby is growing so no worries. I do get tired easily and went for a walk too far the other day and strained the muscle between my pelvic bone, it's very painful and if I don't take it easy and let it get better I'll have to wear a brace. Hopefully it heals soon.
So, people keep asking if there are any names yet. Ken really likes Casey. I'm not sure. I find it harder to pick a boys name, than a girls. I don't want anything too common, but nothing far out there either. I like Delko. Not sure if we will have one or 2 middle names. We also like initials, ie: RJ, JT, JR, CJ
Any suggestions??
Oh and Good news! My blood pressure is gone down! They even took me off one pill. So I'm only taking one a day now. All is well!


19 Happy Weeks :)

So today is 19 weeks. Time is creeping up there. I still don't look prego, but I am off work indefinitely. I ended up having to stay in the hospital overnight 2 weeks ago. I went in for my regular appointment and my blood pressure was very high. So they kept me in. I was so upset, I hate the hospital. But my bp went down after just a couple hours there. I got out the next day. It seems to be doing well now. It's been normal the past 2 weeks and the headaches are gone. But just to be safe the Dr. took me off work until the baby is born, so now I am on sick leave. It's nice not having to get up and out the door in the morning, but sometimes I'm still up 6:30 eating froot loops and watching cartoons. lol. Or peanut butter crackers seem to be my morning craving now. We have our 20 week scan next wednesday, not sure if we're gonna find out or not what we're having. Ken wants to know, but I don't. Then again, I do. We will see when that time comes. I just hate having to go back to the hospital so often. I was there for a regular appointment every Wednesday (usually it's once a month at this point, but I'm once a week). Had to go back yesterday for more blood work, this time for an early glucose test, then again today for a 24 hour urine catch (this is the second one). It just gets frustrating. I have to go back again next Wednesday morning for a regular appointment then wait until 4pm for my ultrasound. I think I'm frustrated because one doctor is telling me one thing, then another one tells me something different. I guess I’ll just have to relax and let things take it’s course. No movement yet!


Happiness & Heartbeats

So it looks like it's been awhile since I last posted (I realized I forgot to publish the last post, so I'll put it all into one)...

Well just to let you know, I feel good. I am now almost 16 weeks and my clothes is getting snugger (although I haven't gained any weight). My OB changed my BP meds last wednesday. I had to go back last Friday to get checked and it seems that it is working! 110/61 I was very excited. But I went back again this morning after 4 days of headaches and it's up (again). I am now off work for a week, lovely. But at least I can use my vacation time so I wont lose any pay. Sleeping is a little tougher. My boobs are huge! I'm sure if I got measured I would need Double G bra (if there is such a thing).
I've been having so many appointments it's hard to keep track. My thyroid meds are increased again. At least I feel less tired now, Thank God. I still find it har to stay awake past 9 at night, and no matter what time I go to bed I'm usually wide awake at 7. I have to go to the bathroom a lot more at night, I guess my body is getting me used to getting up a dozen times a night with baby.
I received a packaged of ASSORTED SOURS & CHEWS! Thanks to my lovely niece Desaree & her Momma. She sent them all the way from Nova Scotia, they were sooo good! My sister Danielle also sent me flowers to my work last Saturday as a congratulations because she can't be here. It was so sweet! I feel so loved by so many people!
We heard the babys heartbeat for the first time last Wednesday. It was amazing. I also heard it again this morning just to make sure all was well especially with my blood pressure being up. So right now I just have to take it easy and not do anything. Hopefully this can all regulate itself while I eat my weight in rolaids. Yea, heartburn. But I can't complain, at least I'm not puking. That makes me happy.
I'm also taking care of Momma. She broke her foot and has a cast on until the end of May. At least I have some company. I'm sure we'll go through many movies in the next week! Or maybe I can get some scrapbooking done? hmm....This might be an ok break afterall! xo -C


Monkey See, Monkey Do?

"Do you know what you're having yet?"
"Umm, well we're really hoping for a baby, but I did see a lady on the front of the National Enquirer once who had kittens!"

Yes people, I did answer someone like that. I hope this child isn't saucy like it's Mudder. Hopefully a bit more tactful like their Fadder!
Anyways, had another ultrasound today. A-maze-za-zing! This little baby was moving and kicking and just doing everything! They turned sideways and you could see the little nose, it was so cute, then all of a sudden he/she turned their head right towards the monitor and I saw the biggest ears ever! (or so I thought). No wonder I'm craving bananas, I'm having a monkey! Maybe I'll be on the front of the next enquirer? Who knows! But hey, it's our monkey :) Ken said it was the hand close to the head, we'll see.
But in all seriousness, it was so precious to see how big they've gotten since our last ultrasound. You can see so many features, I asked for a pic, but no dice. They said they don't like giving pics this early because it's not clear (ok so the sonograper thinks my child has Will Smith ears too). But I will get one in May, at my 20 week appointment.
So, let's talk about cravings (or pass up this section if you have no willpower). I cannot get enough of sour candy!! It makes me so happy, lol. Only wish I could get some assorted sours! Apparently now they are only available in bulk food stores, but not the one thats closest to me (which is 6 hours away :( boo!) just click the word above to see a pic of them, just in case anyone out there in this blog world comes across them and wants to send them my way, hahaha! Sour Keys will have to do for now! Also, remember chews? Those purple, red and orange gum from the 25 cent machine? That are extrememly sour? yea well, I've pretty much cleaned out the machine at the mall, there goes my life savings, hahaha. I'm still eating healthy, but the sour candy is now my weakness. As long as I don't get to wanting tearjerkers or warheads, we're good.
I also saw the dietitian today (referred by my PHN). She said to just keep doing what I'm doing, I'm eating well. Bonus! So all is well in my corner of the world, but I'm sure I'll have something interesting after my OB appointment on Wednesday! -C


Stonehenge & Stoneage

Ok, so another ultrasound this morning revealed that my gall bladder is full of stones. Yep, another fork in the road. So, what does this mean? No greasy or spicy food for Candace. Thank God I'm preggo and thinking about the 2 of us, otherwise I think I would just lay down and die. Haha. I seriously hope this eating healthy continues beyond pregnancy. We'll see. But as for pain and stuff, I haven't been too sick, I guess because I was avoiding the greasy grave, until yesterday. I decided I wanted to celebrate my 6 pound in 2 weeks weight loss, so I had a tater poutine (I know right?) from the greasiest place in town, *Scary Browns. Well I guess after a while it didn't agree with me and I was sick all evening. Then for supper I had gravy again, well I guess my body couldn't handle it 'cause I started my slow death process in the middle of doing the dishes (good timing!). I was sick all night, I thought I had to go bathroom but I didn't. I was then a bit worried there was something wrong with squirt (yes, I named the baby already). But it was severe gas and abdominal pain that last all night and even this morning. Good thing I had that appointment, saved me a lot of pain. But I still don't know how I am gonna get through Labour! Oh well, another thought for another day. I have to see the Pinocchio Doc tomorrow about my heart (yea, apparently somethings not right there either). Good thing I got preggo or I would have fell apart :) Life is great! -C

*Name changed to protect the innocent.


"Can you perform for me?"

Another appointment, another pee in a cup, or as the midwife liked to say "Can you perform for me?", another blood pressure check. The midwife looks at me and smiles "Normal". Normal???!!! What!???! Yes I am ecstatic! My blood pressure has been high for so long, and everyone was so worried. But 2 weeks ago after my visit with the PHN, I decided to eat healthier than I already was. I gave up Pop altogether (it wasn't as hard as I thought) as well as junk food and takeout (for the most part). & apparently it's working! I lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks. The Dr. told me this is no time to be on a diet, I told her I wasn't. All I was doing was following Canada's food guide to healthy eating, making sure not to overdo it on dairy and meat servings, cut out greasy, fatty no-good-for-you fillers and getting more fruits and veggies. I Drink lots of water, only 1/2 cup juice in the morning, and 1 glass of milk a day. I never realized how good I could feel! I'm so excited. If I can lose weight before I gain baby weight, that's a bonus! I hit 10 weeks as of tomorrow and according to http://whattoexpect.com our baby is now the size of a prune... "Your baby's growth is fast and furious when you are 10 weeks pregnant. He or she is nearly an inch and a half long and the size of a prune, but not nearly as shriveled (even with all the time it spends in water). In fact, your baby is really taking a human shape now. Bones and cartilage are forming, and small indentations on the legs are developing into knees and ankles. The arms (complete with elbows) can flex already, but don't run to the store for a baseball bat just yet. Though your baby's arms are taking shape and getting stronger, each one is only about the size of this number 1" . Ok, so hold off on the baseball bats, whew, one thing I can cross off my list, lol. So, I have to go for a gallbladder scan tomorrow, I never really asked why (I just figure she knows best), the midwife tested my urine and said "4 positives" for some word even she couldn't pronounce. So there we were, back in the xray department again. I have a scan tomorrow morning, I have to see the medical internist on Friday afternoon (something about my heart), a second ultrasound on the 15th (where I can get a picture, yay!), more bloodwork that day too, and then back to the OB GYN on the 17th for more "go pee in the cup" and "let me check your blood pressure". I think I should just move in there, it would be easier. lol. They also booked me for a 20 week ultrasound sometime in May. I am sure I'm gonna miss something along the way. Ken has also been there for everything so far. He's my rock. Funny thing was this morning it was so nasty outside, it looks like Mother nature hit meonpause and decided to take it out on us, finally give us snow (when we were loving the warm May type weather). We were late getting out of the house because the snow was half way up the door so Ken had to shovel us out, then the road was partially blocked in places from the snow drifts, and it was a bit slippery. So it the midst of all this, we were thinking all morning we were gonna be late, Ken packed work clothes for us both while I did my hair, not realizing until he got to his work he had a partial uniform, lol. He realized he never had his workshirt and he ended up taking my uniform to work with him, lol. I'm sure there will be more mishaps and laughter to come. Life is beautiful! xo -C


Miracles do come in small packages...

So I'm not the greatest blogger, but here's the info you've all been waiting for...
We had our first ultrasound a week ago today. Let me tell you, if you've never had an ultrasound before, this is truly remarkable. But due to the fact my bladder has shrunk to the size of a pea, holding a litre of water was virtually impossible. Anyways, we had a visit with the Public Health Nurse prior to our ultrasound, just to get basic info, yada, yada, yada. While I was waiting to see her, I started shaking and wriggling around, sweating bullets, finally I had to give in and go pee (I'm sure everyone there thought I was on the verge of a seizure). Fianlly! Relief! But at this point, I was thinking all the water I drank was useless and I had to start drinking again. Not a good idea. Well I was sitting there trying to answer questions and I was on the edge of MY SEAT (literally) trying not to pee on the chair. My face was starting to get all red and blotchy at this point, so she finally looks at me and says, "Are you gonna be ok?" Umm, no, my bladder isn't doing so well. I could feel it pulsating, ready to explode. So she decides it's in my best interest to go directly to the hospital, see if I can get in early (God love her little heart!). Well, I couldn't even walk across the road to the hospital, So I got in the van (trying not to pee on the seat) thinking my bladder probably already exploded at this point. Rushed right to xray and said "I can't wait, I'm gonna have to go pee!" She calmly says "Have a seat and someone will be with you shortly". Shortly? I don't think I can even do immediately at this point, did she not see my face? I clearly looked in pain. But it was very short, she gets me to go into the room for the ultrasound, takes one look at me and says "You should not be in this much pain, go relieve yourself a little". I was thinking YES! but have you ever tried to relieve a pulsating bladder, just a little? Well, I thought for sure I was not going to stop peeing, but I did. |Came out, got up on the table, and then it hit me! Not literally, but when she started the sonogram, the pressure almost made me pee on the table, mind you, I had already peed twice in the past 30 minutes. Well, she couldn't see anything and decides that maybe I'd be better on an empty bladder. WHAT??? I just drank all that water for nothing? But I'm just happy to hear I can go pee, again. So I go back to the bathroom, thrid time in 31 minutes (I told you, bladder is virtually pea sized). I never thought I would come out of the bathroom again, I think I even sighed a little :) But there I was, back up on that table and bam! There it was, a little bitty baby. A miracle in the making. No bigger than a peanut. wait, what was that? another peanut? Ken gets all excited, asking if there's 2, nope, it's just a yolk sac. lol. So there's one little tiny life inside me, heart beating at 153 BPM, looks so energetic and full of life. It's just an incredible moment. I never wanted it to end. Now we cannot wait until our next ultrasound, it's just an amazing experience, and I cannot describe the emotion one feels at that moment. The first sign of life. We don't want to find out the sex either. We want it to be a suprise, but Ken's no good at suprises, so we'll see. But I went back and finished my appointment with the PHN and I'm eating healthier but still not feeling the greatest, this kid is hungry 24/7 lol, but loves fruit, fish and water, Thank God! I've never eaten so healthy in my life. But I'm happy. I have another appointment a week from today, we'll see how that goes. I've been having big issues with my sciatic nerve (hasn't bothered me in a while, until recently). Some days I can't even walk, but Thanks God for Mom's Fiancees and Rub A535. lol. That's all for now -C


Unexpected Blessing...PT. 2

Continued... So, minutes see like hours at this point and I start to question my sanity. But I go to my appointment. The Dr. walks in, speaks very loudly at me (I wonder if he has the right patient, there is a 90 year old lady next door) & proceeds to take out his palm pilot looking device and scroll through it. He did this for 15 minutes. Everytime I tried to speak, he cut me off (still extremely loud, I'm sure he was well heard in the waiting room). He was him/hawing back and forth saying yes it's fine, no it's not. Then after 15 painstaking minutes of watching him scroll through his palm pilot thingy and making eyes and faces at Ken to keep both our sanity, he concluded that he would leave me on the medication I'm on until I can see my regular Dr. ARE YOU KIDDING ME????? Wait another week? Yea, he's not sure if he should change it (after I tell him what I've been through and been told, oh did I mention he refuses to speak with a midwife?) so I had to question myself each time I took my meds for another 7 days until I could see my regular GP. This was getting a bit ridiculous. Oh, I forgot to mention, I told him I wanted a confirmed hospital pregnancy test to verify I was indeed pregnant, he says not a problem, but forgot to give it to me, so I ask the nurse before I leave, she runs to catch him. Oh yea, he forgot, goo pee in a cup. Apparently the HPT is just as accurate as the hospital ones now. Then I ask the nurse how long it takes to find out. DO I wait a day? a week? Who knows with this place! She tells me they can find out right away, but she needed to speak with the Dr. She asks him if he wants the results stat, he says "Naww". I felt like strangling him. She speaks with the lab, tells me I could call back at 5pm and speak with a nurse in emerg, they would be able to tell me. I laugh, out loud. I think Ken laughed too. What else is there to do at this point? So I call back, but not until 5:30, I figure, this gives them extra time. The nurse puts me on hold, then tells me theres no test registered in my chart, to call back tomorrow. Well, isn't this place just full of suprises! So I call back the next day, in the afternoon, yes the results are there but I have to speak with a doctor, they can't give me the results, they said they would leave him a message to call me as soon as possible. I was thinking something must be wrong, maybe I'm not prego? I was so anxious all evening, that night, I knew there was a shift change, I decided to give emerg one more shot. Lo and behold, someone says, "Congratulations! You're Pregnant!" Yay! Wait, why could she give me this information so fast? Oh well. At least it's confirmed by the hospital. But really, at this point, I'm not sure that comforts me or worries me. lol. So, I still have to wait it out, all the while thinking I was absolutely nuts. The following Wednesday comes, we're now at Feb 3rd. I go to see my regular GP (Thank God!) He always makes me feel better. I tell him the whole situation I went through, he was mind boggled. Read some information, spoke with an OB, imagine that! The decided because there was a possible risk, he didn't want to take any chances, switched meds right away. I was in and out in no time. He confirmed that the meds I was on could cause birth defects and is not good for pregnant women. Well, this makes me feel better (somewhat) so now I have to wait to see an OB/GYN for my first ante-natal visit on March 1st (apparently the earliest appointment available and I booked in January). So, I just try to sit back and enjoy the bloating, mood swings, cravings, gas, cramping and all the things that go with it (not knowing what's normal, Thabk God for Google!). A few people mentioned to me about going to Healthy Baby Club, so I figured, maybe I should give it a try. I find out the time and place and on Feb 10th I attend my first session, along with my Dear Fiancee. Well the midwife there was extremely nice and helpful and listened to me rant on and on about my situation. Well whaddya know! She was just as concerned as I was. So, she decides (after filling out massive paperword) to lobby on my behalf. Next day, she comes to work to see me and tells me I go in for my first visit on Monday Feb 15, 2 weeks earlier than the earliest available appointment, lol! Yay! OB & Midwife confirmed that I NEEDED to be seen right away and monitored closely. So, I'm not so crazy afterall (well maybe a little). She actually increases my current meds! I spent almost 2 hours there answering questions, learning new things, getting checked out. I left with paperwork I had to take here and there. Thank God for Ken. He kept me in line, lol. So I went and had to book an apt. for 2 weeks time on a Wednesday morning for my next visit, had bloodwork done and scheduled my first ultrasound, which is today, Wooo!!! So excited (& nervous!)I have to meet with the Public Health Nurse first, then ultrasound after. I have to drink 3 large glasses of water before I go (& expected to hold it). I'm not sure if I can do that, but I'm praying. Seems like my bladder shrunk to the size of a pea. So I'll let you all know how it goes. They said I may not be able to see anything because I'm not that far along, but they want to make sure things are ok. At least know I know I'm being looked after! & Ken has been there for everything. I'm so lucky to have such an involved and concerned partner. Sometimes, I think, if it wasn't for him, I would have fallen apart long ago. -C

Unexpected Blessing...PT.1

Ok, so a few weeks ago Ken & I found out there's gonna be a new addition to our family! yay! We're all excited and nervous at the same time. I already had my first ante-natal visit (which lasted 2 hours!) I guess I should get used to this stuff. I started Healthy Baby Club last week and went again last night. So informative, you learn so much! I am currently sitting at 8 weeks and counting. We have a loooong wait ahead of us. But anyways, here's the story... We were both at work on a Saturday and wondering what we were gonna do that night. I had been feeling different all week and wanting pineapple and fish and veggies (I know eh!). Ken was laughing and making jokes saying, "You must be pregnant". We just laughed it off. Then when we went to Pizza Delight a few nights before I found out and I wanted the chicken skillet (chicken, zucchini, tomatoes, peppers, red onion grilled) instead of Pizza & cheesefingers, Ken said it again. Then we both got to thinking...So Saturday Jan. 23, close to closing time, Ken went to the Pharmacy and got a ClearBlue test, brings it back to work, tosses it to me and says "Here, go see what it says". lol. I left it for a long time, then decided I might as well see what happens. So I went in the bathroom and waited a while before comming out. When I called out to Ken he never moved. He said he knew. We both laughed, and cried, and I think felt every emotion humanly possible. Of course, dating from my first day of my LMP, I was 4 weeks & 1 day. I wanted to wait to even tell anyone anything, but of course I called my Mom and told her (She doesn't display emotion well). Ken then called his Dad, said "Hi Grandpa" and then chickened out in telling him the news, so he called his Mom, told her and she cried and laughed and screamed, and then she told his Father. I wish we didn't tell people so early, but it's hard to keep it in. Then I decided I needed to see a Dr. since I was on prescription medication, Synthroid & HCT. Well, that was a task, let me tell you. I called the hospital, spoke with outpatients, apparently they were extremely busy. Transferred me to a nurse in Emerg. She told me if the HPT said I was positive, then I was. Ok, that's fine, but what about the medication I was on? So, I get put on hold. She then comes back and tells me to call the health line. Ok, I call the health line. Guess what she told me? Congratulations...blah...blah..blah... Make an appointment to see a Dr. at the hospital asap (becuase of the meds). So, here I go again...I call the hospital back, "outpatients please" the lady comes on, I proceed to tell her I was speaking with the health line, they reccomend I get an appointment to see a Dr as soon as they can fit me in. Guess what she says to me "I'll transfer you to emerg and you can speak with a nurse" Oh for Heavens sake! So, on comes the nurse again "How can I help you?" Hmm, let me try this again... So I proceed to tell her I had spoken with the health line, told her what they said and she says those famous words "Can I put you on hold for a second?" Oh why not! :) So by this point I was getting pretty impatient, what kind of place were they running here? She comes back on the line, apparently emergency was too full to fit me in, so I would have to wait until the next day and call and see if they could fit me in at emerg then. (Yea I know, emerg was too full. Maybe I should have told them my head was severed or something). So I hung up. Ken decided maybe we should speak with a Pharmacist regarding the meds. So we do. The Pharmacist tells us we should really see a Dr. because it is not reccomended, apparently, there are different grades of drugs when you're pregnant,and this wasn't a good one. It was late evening, I didn't want to speak with emerg any more today, so I go home and sleep. So guess what I did the next day? I CALL THE HOSPITAL, AGAIN. Ugh, I am so fed up at this point, I think it took me 15 minutes to dial the number. I again ask for outpatients, wondering if there's any point. Nope, none. She transfers me to emerg again. I speak with the same nurse I spoke to yesterday, she remembers me, Suprise! I wonder why. She then tells me she is going to transfer me upstairs to a midwife. What? Why wasn't this mentioned yesterday? So I speak with a midwife, she was extremely nice and acted very concerned. I tell her my situation, guess what happens next? Yep, hold again. But for better reasons. She speaks with the OB/GYN. And I get answers! No, I should not be taking HCT, I should be taking Methaldopa instead. I needed to see someone to get a new prescription. So I ask her to transfer me back to outpatients. I'm ready for a fight but I think I am numb at this point. So, I tell the lady at the desk I would like the earliest appointment possible to see my regular Doctor. Well, it was going to be a while, he was booked up. Ok, then I just need to see any Dr. to get a prescription change. They tell me there's no appointments until the following Friday (this was Tuesday of the previous week). Are you kidding me, nothing earlier? Oh wait, there's another Dr. that has an opening on the following Monday. Ok, still almost a week away. You sure there's nothing else? No, apparently there was nothing else available. Are you sure? Can you check again? I don't know if she was fed up with me at this point or not, but she gives me an appointment for the next afternoon! Bam! Finally! .....To Be Continued...